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Furniture and boxes for my mom arrived yesterday. Official move in day was today. There will be loose ends to deal with for a whole week or more, but she has moved into her facility, so yay!
I have had a magic "spell" going for the success of this transition going on since around February. I hesitate to close the spell just yet. It's a long story to explain the spell but so far so good and I will explain it some other time when I am less rushed. Tonight I finish up some laundry, drink wine and go, "ahhhhh....". Tomorrow is Friday, so I work and then am off except for babysitting.
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Easter was a wonderful day. We were all saying at work yesterday; We all felt like we had a "normal" weekend for the 1st time in a year or so. Everyone of us (aside from the toddlers) was vaxxed. We had other things to talk about except for politics (barf) and COVID (sigh). It was fun. I just wish that MX and Fuzzy1 could have been with us, but duty calls. Some days, having a kid who has "served" and definitely sacrificed and risked life during a pandemic feels what I imagine to be similar to parents who have a soldier kid. Fuzzy1 has come a long way from her days as a stubborn, strong-willed tactless toddler to being thoughtful, caring mature and maternal. 

It was also The Mothership's 91st birthday. May we all live that long and be in as decent of shape. She is nowhere near physically fit. Her mobility is awful. Had she not had a few of her many falls during her 80s, this would be less of a concern, but here she is...survived it all. Move in Day is scheduled for April 15th at HPHC. 

What nice weather! Too bad it's work days, but, still What nice weather!
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 I’m vaxxed!  #2 Moderna is in the books!  
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 SSA is a bitch to deal with. They are so over sensitive of the security that they forget that  most of their "clientele" is unable to express their needs accurately without an advocate, but they do not let the advocate help with providing info. WTF? 
I guess better secure than sorry, and at least the lady on the phone was not rude, but... Jeeeeez....

(Trying to get a 1099 statement for The Mothership's transition to a new assisted living / medicaid waiver friendly residence is insane.)

Work is good. I am super-busy, and I am OK with that.  My very sick COVID-19 student is back. She seems OK. She is just so effing far behind, but her teachers are being very forgiving at least. Tomorrow is our staff COVID-19 shot day #2. Yay! I am not sure how my weekend will go but they advised us to not do major exercise, no booze and to take Tylenol (not ibuprofen). It is not a babysitting weekend, so there is that. I am hoping to go visit the RainBowBoy on Sunday for a time, assuming I do not feel like ass. I am generally a believer of mind over matter.

I will not feel like ass....I will not feel like ass....I will not feel like ass...I will not feel like ass...etc.

I plan to treat myself to a long and well-deserved pedicure after my work day tomorrow to celebrate! If all goes well...maybe a mani next week.

Yay for warmer temps! It's raining now, but yay anyway for warmer temps. It's so nice to NOT freeze my tuchas off finally.

I have had literally 100s of messages between FB and real life regarding my Sushi-Tooshie. I / We will love her forever. She was one special kitty.  Every cat we have had, and even our past dogs when we were kids has been an amazing and super-positive influence in our lives, but man, there was something extraordinary about Sushi. She was sooooo loving. I will miss her purrs, head-butts and tiny kitty "mews" the most. She never had an adult meow. It was always a "mew". Even people who did not warm up to cats, warmed up to Sushi-Tooshi. She was that cute, fuzzy and baby kitty-like up until the end.

I have my Delta airline tix and Holiday Inn resvs for Tampa. Guess I am going to Florida and will spend my birthday there!  I am good w that! It's going to be a very rushed trip, but we will make it work. It's just the bureaucracy of SSA.gov, Melon Bank and a few others that's a bummer. It wouldn't be a big deal if I did not have a day job maybe...
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 You Shook Me

 

You took me.

Of all the ones you could have had, 

you chose me and you were glad.

You wanted a girl. You wanted an ally. 

You wanted to be happier and have someone to sit by.

 

You took me

To see The Jungle Book when I was seven,

Made chocolate fudge and I was in Heaven.

You showed me dancing to rhythm and blues;

I learned the steps standing on your shoes. 

 

You took me

To Florida: The sun, the beach, the gulf and pool. 

Hanging with you was always cool. 

You lazing on a raft; me in my inner tube, holding your toes

In a floppy-brimmed hat; Zinc oxide on my nose.

 

You shook me.

You’d  been drinking and not thinking. 

Dinner was ruined; I was sassy, rebellious and made you upset.

It was only one time, and you felt regret. 

Our relationship altered. I’ll never forget. 

 

You looked at me

As we walked down the aisle.

Arm in arm you gave me a smile. 

Sunrise Sunset, Sunrise Sunset; swiftly flow the years.

One season following another; Laden with happiness and tears”.

 

You shook me. 

As you gasped and rattled, wrapped in a fog of morphine.  

A sight I was unprepared for seeing. 

Trembling, tears, desolation, emptiness and isolation. 

My fun yet complicated dad. You gave me everything you had, 

And when you parted from this plane...

You shook me to the core again. 

 

 

The quotation in this piece is from the musical Fiddler on the Roof. 

Lyrics by Sheldon Harnick.  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sunrise,_Sunset

 

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Ok, so I was on this real fun boat just cruising along with some new friends. The people who owned the boat were having a huge party with lots of music and food. I love parties, especially the ones they call BYOB. Some people are extra awesome and bring more than one bottle!  I meet so many refreshing new Buds and Bubs that way. I even tolerate the Bruts, but their humor is kinda dry. Sometimes the party folks put on music and take us out on the dance floor.  I love that Red Red Wine song. Ever heard it?  It’s a fun one. 

 

Anyway, here I was just sitting on the edge in the sun, spending time with my Buds who were sticking their long necks out to help the Solos not feel so lonely and then there was this big “Bbbbbbrrrrruuummmmmmmpppp!” and then another.  All of a sudden a bunch of us took a dive and were swimming in the ocean, and I got so sad because I lost my cap somewhere in the water. I’ll never find it again.

 

I could hear the party people scream in the distance and call out at the dude who was steering the boat. He’d run aground somehow. I’m glad it was he who was smashed and not me! I heard the young woman who brought me along for the day cry out in annoyance, “Cupcake!  My Cupcake is gone!”  We’d only been together since the morning, but I think she was really going to miss me...

 

The boat engine sputtered and rumbled, waves slapped the side of the pontoon and it pulled away and faded from view. I had a sinking feeling. 

 

I don’t know how long I was out there in the sea, and I have no clue where all my Buds went but next thing I knew I was rolling kind of in and kind of out of the water.  I had an empty feeling, but that helped me manage to stay afloat for a time. Eventually the current pulled me to a quiet little cove where everything was lovely but very quiet. There were no parties going on here. Now what would I do?

 

Then, along comes this hippie guy in a rock band t-shirt I’d never seen before, and I felt so embarrassed because I realized that somewhere out in the ocean I’d somehow lost my label and now I was bare! Oh no! The guy came closer and bent down. “Why do people leave trash all around like this?” he said and sighed. I wanted to tell him that I was not trash. I’m not that kind of bottle. The guy picked me up out of the mixture of sand and stagnant water, turned me over and inspected me up and down. “You will do,” the man said, “I have a plan for you,” and he stuffed me into a backpack.

 

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When I came to I felt a little glassy-eyed, but after a few minutes, I noticed that I was all clean and dry. I thought I was doomed for the garbage can or the recycle bin, but noooo…This guy was real nice and filled me with water and then stuck some pretty flowers in me. He even gave me a nice bow to wear too, so now I really looked sharp! Then he set me on a table and lit two candles. Then his honey or wife or someone like that came in and…Well…If I tell the rest of this story I will go blush…

 

So…Skipping ahead…Sadly I ended up sitting a few years in a kitchen cabinet with a bunch of old drink containers from all sorts of cool places. Most of them had big black mouse ears drawn on them, which I found odd, but we got along OK and we called our part of the cabinet “The Clubhouse” because that’s what the bottles with the mouse ears suggested. One day the lady in the house started cleaning out and found me. “Hey, Gary, what do you want me to do with all these old souvenir bottles in here? We never use them. We need to get rid of stuff and make space.”

 

The guy, Gary, he came over and saw me and said, “OK. You are absolutely right as always my dear. Let’s clean up, but… I need this one for a project.” He held me up to the light, turned me over and examined me. His expression was sly.

“I’ll be home later, “ he called out to his bride as he dashed out the door gripping me tightly.

 

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Next thing I know, I am here on this amazing island. It’s very pretty. There are lots of palm trees, the sun is shining, and I see a few huts and a campfire. I have no idea what Gary wants me to do here on an island, but he stuffed two pieces of paper inside my neck and set me on a table again, but no flowers and no wife are here this time. There’s a fire burning, and a bunch of very tired and worried-looking people are sitting in front of me. They do not look happy.

 

This is awkward.

 

Gary tells someone to come forward to take me! Oh gosh! Now what!

 

Then this very nice lady rises from her bench and comes to pick me up. She likes me and has great hope. I feel so fragile and want to live up to her expectations. I don’t want to shatter her aspirations…

She murmurs, “Please G-d, please…” over and over again, and she cradles me lovingly in her arms…I want to stay with her…Maybe I can go back to her house…

 

Then she takes the 2 papers that were put inside me and pulls them out. I feel a little lighter and less stuffy again. Ahhhh…

 

Uh-oh…The nice lady who hugged me close and unstuffed me has set me down on the table. She is happy and not happy all at the same time after reading her message and takes a step backwards. This does not look good…I don’t understand what is going on here, but I hope they know it’s not my fault. I do my best to be sparkling and bubbly, but everything has gone flat just now.

 

So all I can do is remember my favorite song and hope that whatever Gary decides to do with me next will be something pleasant again.

“…Red red wine, you make me feel so grand

I feel a million dollar when you're just in my hand

Red red wine, you make me feel so sad

Any time I see you go, it make me feel bad…”

 

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Ahhhhh!!!!! It’s party! I get to go to another party! ALL RIGHT!!!

 

Gary is actually a really nice guy after all. He treated everyone on the island to a huge buffet meal with all the fixins. I get to sit right in the middle of everything where I can see everyone on the island joyfully chow down on all the amazing gluten-free, meat-free, sugar / carb-free foods and beverages of their choice. Gary picked some lovely tropical hibiscus plus plumeria, filled me up with fresh water (soooo nice!) and I get to sit here and shine for all of these talented and deserving souls why pass by and load their plates with all these rich and generous treats. 

 

Oh bouy! This is the best party ever!

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ej1Kpv0WScw

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You have a dream that it is Xmas, and your gladiolas and snapdragons in your yard are blooming! It was kinda nice...

Speaking of which...My (mother's-now-my) Xmas cacti started blooming at Thanksgiving. They had a "surge" in magenta-colored blooms at Xmas, as you might expect...and they have never stopped! There has been a small fall back, but now it looks like I will have Valentine blooms out the wazoo! The 2 plants love being under the sky light, and I think that's why they do so well here but never flowered when my mom had them. These are at least 10 years old now.

Well, The Mothership got her 2nd COVID shot. Hopefully I start mine next week. 2 employees have tested positive this week. (WTF?) and a few more students are excused to Zoom instead of coming to school. (Prob quarantined due to exposure but not actively sick / positive) 

I have a neighbor who works as a mechanic. He works out of his own garage and tends to park either his or other clients' cars along the street, which makes maneuvering down the street especially tricky on Trash Day and when we have snow. Once I had to call the cops because he had a huge-honkin' Hummer parked right in front of my house for 3 days! (His vehicle; not a client's, however, I did not know this) Dude has so many cars go in and out I have had no idea whose is whose car. Yesterday a huge-ass white car-van-truck "thing" (bigger than a Yukon or a Durango) was parked in front of my house when I got home. This is one thing to pull in the driveway with that there and another to try to back out in the early AM if it stays there. It's also no bueno on trash day. I did not say anything and luckily it's gone as of this AM. Last time when I called the cops, I had no idea who was putting vehicles there, but they were parked precariously, and I was genuinely concerned about someone hitting this unknown Hummer by accident. Tom, the mechanic was notified that there was a complaint, and altho the police swore they would not give out my name, I think he figured it out by elimination. He's been uppity and unfriendly ever since and it's been a year now.
I feel bad about it and I don't. 

RainBowBoy had his 1 year check up yesterday. Hoping to hear how that went soon. This kid is teething like a maniac and still no teeth! My guess is he's getting 4 all at once. (He has the 2 bottom ones but nothing else.) The babysitter is still out sick from COVID-related issues. I can't help out due to my job for a whole week.

The Survivor Idol writing event is getting crazy. I just want to write...
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 Tiney

 

From the first day Tiney arrived he had a hard time fitting in. He was dropped off in a cramped and crowded cubicle which he now had to share with an assortment of other stiffly postured inhabitants whose reputations had been tarnished. 

“Hey, Who the fork are you?” a spiky-topped guy in the back demanded. 

“I, I, I’m Tiney, sir. Who are you?”

“None of your Gorham business!” the testy utensil poked back.

“You’d better stay out of my way, ya hear me?  No jabbing.  No stabbing. No forkin’ around, ya hear me?”

“Yeah, yes, sss-sir”. Tiney was terrified. 

“ Looks like you can’t even do a real fork’s job anyway. You must be here to work with the shrimps and the weenies.”

 

“A bit of advice though,” the spiky-headed tool continued.

“Ya gotta especially stay away from those perverts in the next cube over. Those lazy SOBs think they can dish it out but all they do is lay around and spoon together day and night. They think they got the scoop on everyone else’s business but they don’t, see.”

Tiney nodded anxiously. He looked around. 

 

Tiney pointed the other way and asked next, “What about those sharp-lookin’ fellas right over there ?” 

“Well, their leader is Mac.  He’s a mean and very dull but he’s big. Then there’s Jack. Stay away from Jack. He gets pissed easily ‘n flips everyone off. He has a way of gettin’ under your skin, ya know. Oh, ‘n they got a pal named Pat who likes to butter everyone up because he’s not too sharp. He spreads himself too thin to be worth much. I tell ya though when those motherforkers get together they can be real cut ups sometimes,’ the slender, and slightly curved cutlery added.

 

Tiney was a bit nervous and hoped that he would find a way to feel less uncomfortable in his new setting.

 

Days passed and life in the over-crowded silverware drawer became monotonous. Tiney settled into a spot where he huddled with a plastic knife who seemed harmless enough but anxious and on the verge of snapping at any moment. The days turned into weeks.  Sometimes the drawer opened, light poured in briefly and a few residents were taken out and then returned all shiny and smelling lemon-fresh after a few hours. They told the other residents that the way to get so brand new looking again was to find a way to get inside the Water Place. It was warm there and you got an amazing shower, a rub down and you come out feeling renewed and useful again. Tiney also learned to numb up to the silly insults that the carving knife and biggest fork often made. After all, they had tough jobs dealing with hams or turkeys all the time. They always had a beef about something, and Tiney had to learn not to take what they said personally.

 

The next day was a big holiday. The inhabitants of the drawer explained that it was Thanksgiving. On Thanksgiving you were supposed to work hard and get along with all the dishes, pots and pans because the day was about everyone coming together and celebrating the fact that each member of the kitchen was special. When the big day was finished a whole bunch of lucky cutlery and plates would get to go to the Water Place for some well-deserved R and R. 

 

The aroma of baking and the sounds of boiling were everywhere. From inside his compartment, Tiney could hear footsteps and muffled conversations.  He was very curious. Suddenly something felt like an earthquake.  He sensed a pulling and heard someone on the outside say “Damnit!  Who rammed a spoon in here backwards?” This comment was followed by serious grunting and more cursing and shaking. Tiney began to feel rattled. 

 

With a very loud “Errrrrrgggghhhh” and a forceful yank, the drawer jolted open and Tiney suddenly found himself flying through the air. 

 

Someone yelled unintelligible profanity and a furry, long-tailed creature he’d never seen before let out a noise that seemed to be a cross between yowling and screeching. The creature darted toward Tiney, and the horror-stricken little seafood fork missed the freaked out feline’s right eye by millimeters. He landed on the hard wood floor with a clink. When Tiney came to he realized he was being licked by that furry thing that yowled. It was a weird, itchy sensation. 

 

“No, no Grogu get away!” the hurried human said and swiftly shooed the furry fellow back from Tiney.  She gently picked up the shell-shocked piece of silverware and carried it across the room.  “I can’t use it in this condition,” the human said and sighed. “In you go!”

 

A large door opened and then closed very quickly. The room went dark. There was a rumbling noise and the whole area seemed very warm.  Then came the lemony essence and sprays of something liquid. He’d found it! The Water Place!  At last!  Now, as he lavished in squirts, suds and showers, he knew what everyone was talking about, and he indeed loved it. 

 

When Tiney was pulled from the Water Place about an hour later that nice human gently gave him extra wipes with a soft cloth and placed him on a table with a bunch of other shiny members he’d seen in the drawer. Everyone looked so different and so much better all shined up and poised on the tablecloth. 

Content and ready to party, Tiney thought to himself, “We clean up pretty good!” Tiney didn’t even mind having to help with the weenies. They didn’t give him any trouble at all. He was finally comfortable serving with his pals who, in spite of a few cutting remarks now and then, gave sterling effort to many glorious occasions for years. 

 

 

 

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 The T-Word:

 

I’ve been thinking a lot about the T-word, (“Trigger”) lately. The word itself  has the potential to be over-used, like those professional buzz words that go around: “paradigm”, “synergy” and “best practices”. (Actually, those kinds of words are what trigger me more than anything else.) I’m weird because the words you would assume should be chilling or angst-inflicting are far less troubling to me. Thank G-d I no longer find myself in this situation, but in the past I have been “psychologically / emotionally work-abused” in that I have been mislead, invalidated, taken advantage of and excluded by colleagues in charge who love to toss this type of work lingo around. I am also sure that I am not the only person reading this who has experienced similar treatment.

 

Even if The T-word itself is over used, that doesn’t mean that triggers don’t exist. We just need to think carefully and respectfully about what we label as triggers and explore how and why they create the effects they do.

 

I never questioned being triggered as a child. That’s not something you did if you were taught to show respect to authority figures and elders. In fact, I didn’t even realize if I was being triggered as a kid. I’m sure it was unintentional. My family members were good people. The thinking then was also that it was much better to toughen you up. Maybe people who survived two World Wars and a Great Depression thought this was a way to instill a survival skill.  As an adopted kid, I became an expert at surviving (emotionally).

 

Regarding adoption, I was exposed to all the trigger-tastic, classic lines:

 

“You’re special.”

“G-d sent you to us.”

“ She (your birthmother) loved you so much she gave you away.”

“You’re ours.”

“You’re so lucky. / Thank your lucky stars.”

“What happened to…/ So where are your ‘real’ parents?”

“What more could you want that you don’t already have?”

 

I wonder, are these comments actual triggers or just over used buzz-sayings that some non-adopted folks use as go-to responses because they have no idea what to say that’s productive, or are they both?

 

These days, I’m not triggered by these lines. Anymore, they’re unenlightened eye-rollers and openings in a conversation, which I use as my chance to provide clues to less-taught, typically non-adopted individuals. My plan is to take power from these words and statements and use that power to educate the less informed. 

 

The thing is, whatever word, phrasing or image it is that causes an unpleasant sensation for you, it signifies something; It matters, and it’s an individual thing, meaning what irks me might not be the thing that irks you and vice-versa.

 

Whatever your T-words, visuals and phrases are, they generally are annoying and upsetting because they downplay your feelings and belief systems. They invalidate your abilities and thoughts. They make you feel inferior and like you do not measure up. The message of T-words suggests that something is missing or lacking about you. 

 

Some T-words and sayings are bothersome because they make you feel as though someone else is trying to impose their belief system on you. T-words make you feel like someone is attempting to control the way you do things. T-words make you feel like someone is taking away your freedom.

 

The thing is, YOU and your thoughts do matter. YOU do count. YOU deserve respect, even if some people disagree in opinion. 

 

When T-words occur for me, I suspect it’s my Adoptee-Brain rearing up, and I do my best to figure out why a certain term or group of words can send me into “shields up” mode.(With the afore mentioned terms I associate them with changes or shifts in the hierarchy of employees and what if I’m not good enough.) I shouldn’t have to live that way every day, but at the same time, I cannot expect other people and institutions of society to constantly police their vocabulary, especially when they have no way of knowing my situation. 

 

What I’m saying here is, yes, we all have triggers. They aren’t all the same for all people, and that’s OK. For me, the things you wouldn’t associate with adoption could be inciting, and other more adoption-related things aren’t  the ones that make my brain back fire. It’s impossible to 100% avoid being triggered in life in the same way it’s also 100% impossible to never inadvertently use a T-word around someone else. We just do the best we can.

 

Sometimes the troublesome verbiage and pictures we hear or see are just old-timey notions rooted in ignorance or intolerance. We are weary of hearing these ineffective scripted responses over and over and do not know how to make it stop.

 

So how do we halt the effects of T-words and T-imagery? What could people say or do instead that would be more honoring or gracious?

 

Here are some ideas:

 

As the speaker, try responding with:

 

“What was that like for you?”

“Tell me about…”

“How do you feel about it?”

“I’d like to know more about...”

“Anytime you’d like to talk, I’d love to hear more.”

Apologize, even if what you said / did was accidental, (and sincerely mean it).

Just listen

Avoid arguing, correcting or taking sides

Be receptive to new ideas

Understand that we ____(insert marginalized group)____ live the  experience every day.

Remember that we have something to teach you. 

Be cognizant of the fact that we  have had a myriad of experiences, and no two stories are alike

 

What we, as highly sensitive people can do to remedy the situation:

 

Understand that changes won’t happen over night.

Start with the belief that someone triggering you probably is not doing it deliberately. They are probably unaware.

Use the T-Word or incident as a teachable moment. 

In the moment, (yes, this is hard), remain as neutral as possible while teaching the unaware party. (Vent later.)

After the discussion, if you feel drained, do something nice for yourself or your pet or another person you care about. (Walk - pet the dog, listen to music, dance, nap, have a cookie, call an old friend, play video games, draw or color, have a glass of wine.)

 

In short; Take what feels like a negative and turn it into a positive. 

 

Our individual lives are like no others. Humans are strong and resilient. We are smart and experienced with uniquenesses in life. We are in the power seat because we know our own situation better than anyone else. We are worthy and deserve respect not only because of a distressful event but because we are all part of the Universe. 

 

 

 

adoptedwriter: (Pete the Cat)
It starts with a want;

a simple want but with with lousy timing.

no words to explain but many passionate feelings abound:

     impatience

     insistence

     frustration

Later” (I avoid the word,“no”.)

Her sense of time is yet-to-be formed and only now matters. 

“Let’s go read some Pete the Cat,” I offer. 

There is no reasoning

but my decision remains

because, consistency is key at this point.

Is this escalation going to be worth it?

     Heat rises; I take a deep breath.

     Hearts race; mine and hers.

     Her face reddens, akin to a panic attack.

Moaning and whining increases.

“Sorry sweetheart; not time now, but we can read your Pete story.”

Emotion escalates to something above anger:

     ire? 

     fury? 

     wrath? 

     rage?

She dramatically drops to the floor.

Her small, pudgy hands strike at the air.

Her bare feet bang the floor, pink polish chipped off her toes,

and vocals surge into howling.

She writhes and digs her tiny fingers into the carpet

but I must dig in as well and stay calm.

This will pass, but her conviction is powerful.

and I ponder as she swings her sweat-soaked, golden curls left and right,

will she become an actress? an athlete? a heavy metal singer in a band? an opera diva? or forever scarred because I told her “Snacks are for later”?

I clutch the Pete the Cat book to my heart and wait.

The screams sound like something awful in a horror movie.

She has my strong will with her mother’s short fuse. 
Damn!

She’s only two.

Her three-minute screech-and-scream fest feels like 30 minutes, but it probably feels more like three hours in her toddler-time world. 

I love her so much, but love doesn’t mean you don’t need a few rules,

even at Granny’s house.  

The fist pounding slows. 

The wails become softer. 

Tears mixed with sweat beads slowly trickle down her temples.

She sighs. 

Breathing slows.

Her blue eyes gaze to one side in exhaustion.

I’m still patiently holding Pete the Cat and his Four Groovy Buttons and I open to page one.  

She sits up and looks over at me quizzically

and joins me on the sofa. 

The incessant sobbing subsides. 

“Gwanny weed Pete?” (She can’t say ‘Rs’.)
 

“Pete the Cat is wearing his favorite shirt,” I begin, “the one with the four totally groovy buttons...”

 

Groovy, I dig Pete the Cat as much as she does right now. Pete is a cool kitty dude and he totally saved our day.

 

PS:

If you have small folk and have not heard about this literary blessing, I highly recommend Pete. He has music, books and videos. (See my icon.)

https://www.petethecatbooks.com/  or Amazon.com 
 

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 My brother used to have this game he would play with his kids, sometimes in the car and sometimes around the meal table. It was called “The Quiet Game”. Ever heard of it?

 

The idea was to stay silent for as long as possible, not leave the table and to resist the urge to utter anything until the leader, (he), called time. It was a way for my bro to control the decibel level when 5 kids were packed into a tight space together. His wife and my mother, when she was visiting, usually joined in playing too. It was harmless. My brother would purposely try to make people respond vocally by telling a joke, offering up candy, asking you a question or doing anything else distracting. Pretty much the only immunity you had for not being considered a “loser” of the challenge was if, for some reason, you literally vomited and had to leave the table. It was all in good fun for the most part and was intended to mainly give adults a brief break from squeals, excess giggles, whining and general loudness of young kids.

 

I was visiting at my brother’s home in Florida about 10 years ago and found out about this game, which was starting to become more competitive as his kids grew older. (My family members have a heightened sense of wanting to win at even nonsensical, low-stakes rivalries, which I have always detested, but I was expected to play along.) I knew I could win this one. I have steel-tight concentration when I apply myself. The secret was to look down and find “The Zone” and stay there for as long as it took. It’s not as easy as it sounds when the dog is barking at something out the window, when a kid spontaneously sneezes and sputum jets across the table or when your brother decides to belch loudly or cut a big fart.

 

(I know some of you are already laughing and not keeping silent now because I just said, “cut a big fart”.)

 

The day this silly table game occurred I had been spending the afternoon helping my mom with whatever mundane chores she’d asked of me. She and I had been going through a very challenging year in our relationship and helping her do odd-jobs was not pleasant. Actually, I was not helping her do chores at all. She was doing nothing but sitting in a chair ordering me around and then criticizing every move I made. I was frazzled, feeling rejected and like a disrespected peon fool for doing her bidding. At the time my mother was demanding, demeaning and rigid about what she wanted and the way she wanted things done. (She drove restaurant servers nuts.) I was burned out of being her caregiver.

 

I always tried to cut my mom slack because she was elderly, had been through some difficult times in her life and was an uninformed product of the way she was raised. She did not know any better, but there were days when I understood there was more than one reason why my parents’ marriage broke up. My mother thought my brother walked on water and was incredibly clever, but she regarded me as her servant girl. Her treatment shredded my self esteem. I could do nothing right. I was a fully-functioning, professional adult, but my mother could still shatter my sense of self worth and lure me into a hailstorm of doubt and loathing for my own existence. I used to come home drained from visiting her, and my husband and children began to detest my mother because of the unhealthy headspace she created. This was way past the “no one can control the way you feel but you” stage. When your own parent does not have your back and laughs at your efforts, and it goes on for years, there is a problem. The thing was, she was over 80 years old, recovering from a near-fatal car wreck and had no one else for months to rely on but me while my brother was incarcerated. I couldn’t just “dump” her; I was brought up to respect my elders, and she needed care…like a fox.

 

Back to “The Quiet Game”.
 

That particular evening, I’d had it with Mom. For whatever reason, she’d already been eliminated from the game and was pissed, so she decided to chide in with my brother, the self-proclaimed emcee. She handed me her finished dinner plate. This was a sign that she was telling me to get up and clear the table. (She loved to infantilize me, as if I were 13 and living at home under my parents’ roof.)  If I responded I would be out of the game. Then my mother looked my way and called me “stupid”. My younger niece heard it and gasped. My niece was proclaimed “out”. I sat angrily in silence, determined to win this moronic, ridiculous family game because if I was being viewed as ‘stupid’ with no quality skill level at anything else but clearing the goddamn table, then I would never give in or bow to her pressure. I would win this miserable excuse of a control game, even if I had to piss myself and last all night in that fucking kitchen chair. I stared my mother down for the next 10 minutes while one other older niece and I competed for the top spot. I had nothing against my older niece. She was determined like me and usually did win the game, but my brother finally called “time” and ended it. We tied. 

 

I turned toward my mother. “You called me stupid,” I calmly but seriously said. My dignity had been destroyed in front of the rest of my family. I just called my mother out in front of people, but I had to be careful. Showing too much emotion would only cause her to respond to me that I was being “too super-sensitive”.

 

“I never said that!” Mom responded.
My nieces and sister-in-law all agreed with me. “We all heard it,” my sister -in-law said.

“Guess it’s time to clear the table now”, was all my mom could say. She rose from her seat and left the kitchen. 

No apology. Nothing.

 

My sister-in-law and I did the dishes together quietly. Meanwhile, I thought about how I would have the chance to go to the Y the next morning to work out and sweat my indignation in every direction. In the meantime, I retreated to the bedroom, vented to my journal and then fell asleep. 

 

What I learned from playing that shitstorm of a competition was that next time my brother loudly calls, “Quiet Game!” I will never again participate. I figured out a response, which my family never argued with: “I’m taking a bye”. It was the only way to avoid putting myself in such a position in the future. It took my mother deciding to permanently move 1,000 miles away to Florida (to be closer to my brother) for me to recover self respect and find perspective again. My Florida family is passive-aggressively dysfunctional with excessive competition and in understanding other people’s feelings. Setting boundaries with them never works 100%, but it’s all I can do to preserve my sanity. 

 

I will always love them, but it’s complicated. My mother is 90 and not in the best of health, (but not that bad for 90). I still call her daily and everything works great on the phone. We face time so that she can see her great grandkids, etc., but we know not to cross one another because she will provoke and I will shut down and retreat. The issue will be dropped and never worked out. It’s how I manage so that I won’t be swept away in a downpour of guilt, shame, obligation and childhood “programming” to always give in and be a certain way. I live my life and my brother lives his. He chooses to not speak to me because I have set boundaries and have called him out on a few things also. Some of his kids are adults now living on their own. Some are pre-teenagers. We have a “Facebook relationship”. Nothing gets too deep, but they know I am out there if they ever need someone. 

 

I have my own family as well; the family my husband and I have created through marriage and childbirth plus my biological family which is partially local and partially in other states. Last week, I wrote about how powerfully that sense of “my people” can suck you into a whirlpool of duty and need and keep you trapped in toxic situations.  Setting boundaries in some way will probably anger some people you care about, but sometimes the situation is sink or swim, and I choose to stay away from the water all together. 

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          The day we brought home our kitty, Sushi from the shelter our lives became richer and gentler. Our kids were still young, and they were thrilled to watch a kitten grow up; a new experience for them. 

 

        Initially the plan was to adopt one kitten as sort of a Sweetest Day / Anniversary present to ourselves, and the agreement was to find a Calico. We’d recently lost our first Calico, (HoneyMoon) whom we’d acquired right after we were married. Since her departure we determined that our home was way too quiet. Our sassy, classy black JellyBean was too restless and needed a baby sister to boss around.

 

Off to the shelter we drove that sunny October afternoon.   

 

The shelter lady led us through a series of hallways, past older cats in one area and into another room which was a nursery of sorts. There were the kittens, still with their siblings and mamas, but eligible for adoption regardless. We found our Calico girl whom the shelter had named “Cheetah”. We were not required to keep that name, but we actually liked it, so we were set.  But we didn’t leave so quickly.

 

In another cage across the room sat a lone mother cat, all white like a snowball, except her eyes were green. She seemed bewildered, and I slipped my fingers between the cage bars to give her some form of love. I felt bad for her. My adoptee heart began to bleed for this solitary birth-mother cat. 

 

“Where are her babies?” my older daughter inquired.   

 

“Oh they were all adopted out today before you came,” the shelter worker said. I read the name tag on the cage: Diva. 

 

“She’s a diva alright”, I said. “Look at that sweet face”.

 

The shelter volunteer assured us that Diva was going home with a volunteer tonight so not to worry. This kitty mama would have a great home. I was relieved. Diva stuck her nose to the cage bars and let me stroke her soft forehead.

 

The door to the kitten nursery room swung open suddenly, and in walked another volunteer with a kitten. She placed the kitten in the cage with Diva and quickly latched the door. “He’s back!" the worker announced. Turned out that all but one of Diva’s babies had been adopted. The remaining kitten had been taken to a pet therapy event at a nursing home nearby for the day and had just returned. The little fuzzball missed out on the Sweetest Day adopt-a-thon because he was out doing good for the elderly. The lady informed us that he was a male. My daughters instantly took pity on him.

 

My girls insisted on petting him since, why not? We had one lucky and lovely kitten selected, but we might as well give this cute little white, fuzzy guy some good luck  metta before we headed out. My husband, the girls and I sighed and sat back down on the floor again to play for a few more minutes with the friendly fellow. I was falling in love. As soon as I saw his back end I knew…"Um, this is a female”.

 

The volunteers realized quickly that the other prospective adopters received the male by accident. Someone earlier had mixed up the brother and sister.

 

“It’s another girl daddy! It’s a girl. Can’t we get her too?” Our daughters  were insistent. I was insistent, and in spite of my husband’s better judgement, (and mine too, but I was less hesitant), that afternoon we walked out of the League for Animal Welfare smitten with two kittens: the loving and chill Calico we intended to adopt and the undersized but spirited white ball of squeaks and fluff we never dreamed of but who has shared more affection, cuteness and cuddles than anyone could ask for. We named her Sushi because she looked like a curled up little sushi roll with green eyes and pink foot pads. Some would describe her as so cute it’s disgusting. I just say she’s angelic. 

 

We also joke and say we got SuSHE instead of a SusHE.

 

     Today, Sushi is 18 1/2 years old. She is slowing down but the love has not. Cataracts are clouding her large green eyes, but she can still “read” you and see into your soul. She knows when someone needs company and cuddles. She insists, wobbly legs and all, on climbing on the back of the sofa so she can head butt by my ear or my hand. My Friday night adoption “happy hour” Zoom group has dubbed her the “mascot” since, well, Sushi is an adoptee as well and she has charmed them. Her purr begins with a slow, low rumble and builds to a the sound of a small motor. Sushi has always had a kitten mew instead of a full adult cat meow and she will nestle belly up in your arms like an infant.

 

One day little old, frail but affectionate-to-a-fault Sushi is going to cross that Rainbow Bridge. We will never be ready, and there will never be a another like her. Saying that our hearts will break is an understatement because there will be no words. As I watch her doze  contently and innocently on the sofa this evening I muse: Sweet forever baby girl…You give more than you take…You love without condition…You make people smile…You’re goodness purrrrrsonified…Your time is coming, but for now…We’re not there yet…You’ve had a lucky, loving life, but so have we.

 

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This might only be an echo chamber in that we all know the same folks and get the same news and messages because basically, my only "active" friends here are LJ DW Idol folk anyway, so we all know this, but I'll still put this out there.
Please consider voting for our team/tribe (Luzón) in the Survival Idol writing contest. We are a fun and talented bunch and would be most appreciative.

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My Tribe:
adoptedwriter
alycwilson
bittyjane
bleodswean
flipflop_diva
murielle
n3m3sis43
swirlsofpurple
uselesstinrelic

All of the entries are worthy and excellent, so if you have the time check out all players' work. Voting ends this PM. 
Thanks and have a great day!

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Me:  I don’t swim.  I won’t go. It's winter.

My mom: It’s not real water.  It’s just a theme.  You’ll be fine, Link. Clara, Hernán and Sam are going. I think Meg is too. Mrs. H. and Mrs. S. will be there to help you guys. Then you get to have pizza at Fazzoli’s afterwards.  

Me: What’s a theme?  

My mom: A theme is an idea, Link. Just an idea. There’s no ocean there.

Me: (whiny voice) Do I have to wear a swimsuit? 

My mom: No Link.  You will be inside with your friends from school. 

Me: Good because it’s cold out.  I will need a jacket, right?  

I clasp my arms around myself gesturing chilliness. 


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The bus is here.  We all board and since it’s just our class, everyone gets their own seat. I want to sit alone but Clara and Meg always sit together and talk about One Direction. It’s a band. Plus they giggle a lot.


I have my iPhone and can listen to movie theme soundtracks instead.  I like the music from Star Wars best. John Williams is the composer. He’s like Beethoven only Beethoven is dead, and John Williams is living. Mrs. H.  says the bus ride will take 20 minutes.


I’m nervous and I check the time. I’ve never been to an escape room and it sounds scary, but all my friends are going for Friday Nights Out, and my mom says I don’t need to wear swim trunks even if it’s a tropical deserted island escape room. I only wear swim trunks when we go to Myrtle Beach at spring break.
I wonder how you escape from there. 


This bus has a funny smell, and someone wrote a bad word on my seat. That’s wrong. I need to tell the teacher. 

“Hey, Mrs. S!” I call out, “There’s a cuss word on my bus seat. It’s the one that starts with ‘F’. What should I do?”

She’s letting me move to the seat across the aisle because that seat is cleaner.


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We’re here but this place sure doesn’t look like an escape room. They have some crazy lights and they shine images of fish, sharks and octopi on the walls. That’s plural for octopus. Did you know that?  Now it’s our turn to go in the next room. I hope there’s no water in there. I don’t like swimming because it burns my eyes and makes me feel cold. 


Ok. So Mrs. H. says we have 30 minutes to solve a mystery but it’s not like Scooby Doo, but we still have to look for clues that will help us open special doors and get the magic keys and then we have to find the missing idols, line them up and spell the mystery word that will help us that open the sunken treasure box. Pirates look for sunken treasure. Have you ever seen Pirates of the Caribbean? It’s a Disney movie but for older kids. There are some scary parts. 


The room is dark, and that is weird. Now I know why they called this the Island Survival Escape Room. It’s like being on the beach at night.You can’t see much, and they have sounds of ocean waves on the speakers. The ceiling looks like a bunch of stars. I lean my hand on a shelf and something falls on the floor.  I think it’s a funny-looking key.  It’s not like the key to my house or Mom’s car keys, so I show it to Clara. She says to show it to Mrs. H.


“Good Job, Link! You’re onto something there!” my teacher says.


I’m not sure what she means by that so I go back to the place where I was leaning and watch some more. Sam finds a gold coin under a fake candle. It’s good that it’s a fake one because a real candle could burn you.  I’m not allowed to light candles at home. 


Gold coins can make you rich so I think he found something good.  Mrs. H. and Mrs. S. are excited about Sam’s discovery. Meg finds another key just like the one I found.  When Clara lifts up a sea shell she finds another clue. It’s a third key. I check my phone. We have 20 minutes left. 


Meg needs help opening up a box she found in a dark corner. She wants me to help her get it open so I do. She’s nice, but I like Clara better, but Clara likes Sam. The lid is on tight. The box makes a jingling sound. We see more gold coins. They occasionally glimmer in the dim light and Meg decides to reach deeper into the box. She finds one more key.
That was a surprise. 


Mrs. S. has us bring our keys to the table that has key holes on the top in the center of the room. Sam is curious and sits on the floor. He looks over and sees a bottle on its side. 

“It’s trash” he says. “I throw it out now?” 

“You should not put trash in an escape room”, says Clara. 

“Right. That could be germy” I add. “But wait a minute... That’s not a germy bottle. There’s a paper inside! Do you think we have a message in a bottle?”  Mrs. S. Helps us open the bottle cap, and a paper falls out onto the table. The teacher uses her flashlight app so we can read the word “SMASH”. 


“We’re supposed to smash something?” Meg asks. 


“Everybody just keep looking for that last key” Mrs. S. tells us, so we do. I lean back against another wall.  I’m not sure what to do, and I’m not so sure about that word “smash”. One time I was mad and smashed a drink glass on the kitchen floor. Mom took away my phone for two weeks. She said what I did was “inappropriate “.  


I feel a loose brick in the wall. I jiggle it, and I can tell it’s fake. I didn’t break anything. Something falls out and makes a “ker-plunk” sound on the floor. 


Another key! 


We place the five keys on the table and find the holes where we are supposed to insert them. The problem is, some of the key holes don’t work so we have to try each key one at a time. This is getting on my nerves because time is running out! I look at my phone quickly.


“Hey, Mrs. H. and Mrs. S., we only have ten minutes left.”


Meg, Clara and Hernán frantically try each key.  One falls off the table top, and Hernán drops to his hands and knees and sweeps the floor with his hand. “Got it!” he announces and bounces back up. They wiggle all the keys into the slots until they find the matches and the table top can now be scooted away.  Inside the box under the table are four idols.  They look like these silly, tiki statues with funny teeth I saw on vacation in a gift shop over spring break. My mom wanted to buy one. 


“Where’s Idol Five?” Hernán n asks. “We gotta keep looking. 


A light is blinking on the opposite wall and we drew closer. No one knows what to do about the light but Mrs. S. says someone should try to push the button by the light and see what happens, so I do and the word ‘smash’ appears on the other wall, so we all run over to that side of the room. I grab the ship’s wheel that suddenly appears and I turn it because that’s how you steer a boat, and a hole in the wall opens up. We find idol number five! Next I grab it quickly and we arrange our five found idols in order. Carved on their bottoms are the letters S, M, A, S, H. We set the five idols on the tray in order and a treasure chest pops out of another wall! The lights blink and we hear a lightning and thunder sound.


We did it!


The lights come on in the escape room, and we laugh and jump around. Now the speakers are playing hula girl music and colorful stars are shining on the walls by where we walk out. The girl at the front desk greets us at the door and gives everyone a lei to wear. They’re like the plastic ones we got at Meg’s birthday party last year. Mrs. S. has the front desk girl take a group picture of us. That’s going to go on our wall in the lifeskills room at school to show that we got rescued because we unlocked the mystery. 


I feel brave now.  We won and everyone is happy. I didn’t have to wear my swim suit or jump in cold water but I still helped my team get all the idols together. 

I’m starving so now it’s time to grab some pizza!

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 You awaken early in a sweat after a fitful night’s sleep. You’re exhausted

 before the day even begins. Everything you’ve meticulously planned for begins this morning.

You shower frantically before your child awakens and dress quickly. It’s the first day of school and people are looking to you to lead the way gently but firmly, as you’ve done for the past 10 years. Your career means everything. Breathe deep…You got this…


Educating youth right is the best way to produce a better society of respect, kindness, talent and critical thinking abilities. Your job is everything…


You’ve hired a new art teacher who has great project ideas for incorporating global awareness into the curriculum, and a new math teacher who shows promise for raising district standardized test scores and for teaching in the newly implemented gifted program. Furniture in the staff lounge has been updated over the summer as were the three copy machines. You’re excited to see these changes as you wriggle into your skirt and new blouse. Fresh beads of perspiration roll down your just-showered back as you lift your toddler out of her bed, change her clothing and hand her a cereal bar before buckling her into the car seat. 


The morning DJ on the car radio tells listeners it’s going to be nearly 100 degrees for a high today, and you’re thankful that your board of education approved spending on a new air conditioning system for your modest middle school last year. Your successful plea that to keep children at their healthiest and most focused for learning depends on effective climate control in the academic setting was the final push for a better HVAC system. Your teachers applaud your efforts. 


You’re thankful for your career, and you remember to pick up the three dozen doughnuts as a welcome-back gesture of support for your amazing staff of teachers, aides and maintenance workers who break their backs every school day and beyond to provide top care and learning opportunities for young minds. You pull into your parking spot and grab those boxes on the passenger seat and stride into your school, smiling and charged up for another great year. 


Around 2 PM you get your first break of the day to sit down and eat half of a left over doughnut left in one of the bakery boxes. You stare at the bottom of the white box at the grease spots and decide that although everyone likes donuts, maybe next time you’ll get bagels. 


And you suddenly feel sick to your stomach as you tremble and realize the horror of a mistake you made at 8 AM. 


You dash to your nice car parked out front to discover that in all of your enthusiasm and hyper-focus on the first day back to school for your staff, your 16-month-old daughter has perished slowly and silently from heat stroke in your closed up SUV while you were off being everything to everyone else for hours inside your “perfect” building. 

.............

 

This news story made local headlines in 2007. 

 

https://www.cincinnati.com/story/news/2017/08/24/ten-years-ago-day-local-mom-left-her-child-die-car/596774001/

 

I cannot imagine this mother’s thinking on that fateful day. Initially I wanted to judge the —ck out of her.  How could she?  I’ve been super tired and distracted but would never forget to drop off my kid at day care. 

Hell, I once quit a teaching job because I was being forced to put my work life ahead of my kids’ well-being. She was criticized by some folks as being too career-centered and privileged because she lived in an affluent community and drove a Mercedes. However, this mom was never charged by authorities and her school community actually rallied and supported her in her time of loss.


Part of me thinks Mrs. Slaby should have known she was in over her head between her home and professional life and should have taken a break or relied more on others for help. If she was so highly-qualified in her position and so well schooled, she should have had better sense.  I would never want this person to be my principal-boss. I’ll be honest, this over-10-year-old news story yanks, gnaws and tortures my heartstrings so badly that I can’t feel any love. 

 

On the other hand, part of me knows that there is no punishment greater than the perpetual self doubt, self loathing and an inability to self forgive which she will live with for the rest of her days. What happened was tragic, inexcusable, and neglectful, but her life is ruined forever, and it was her own fault. The day this story came out in my home town I instantly felt disgusted and punched in the gut. But also, my mom-heart goes out to Brenda, her husband and older daughter because I do not believe this educator is sociopathic. She was just incredibly hyper-driven to be excellent to the point she fell overboard and inadvertently dragged her baby down with her.

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 On Thursday the Ohio governor will tell us if our county stays red or turns purple. Red  =  COVID bad. Purple =  We’re royally fucked. He prob won’t shut down businesses but will encourage everyone to stay home when possible. Right now our school is open five days a week for students and workers. AKA Tier I.   This could send us back to Tier ll   Workers come in but students would be 1/2 on line and half in class, depending on the day. Tier lll is a total shut down like last spring with 100% remote work and learning. For now, our girls, boys soccer teams are all going to finals. So is football. Even X-Country is going post season. Therefore to keep athletes well (Including cheerleaders) those students are doing 100% Zoom learning for the next two weeks regardless. We’d hate to forfeit a playoff game at this point due to COVID. I think the band kids should also have this option. It does clear a large portion of students out of our building though, therefore reducing risk of contamination. It’s almost like Tier ll learning anyway. 

Guess Thursday is the magic day for now, ... sigh...

Everything is so iffy and unpredictable right now: COVID, politics,     I hate that.

One of my sisters had surgery for severe sciatica Last week.   Another sister had surgery three weeks ago for nerve pain in her neck and down her arm, similar to my situation.  PT helped me but not her.   A third sister is having surgery for neuro pain in her arm and back tomorrow.  Jeez!  

Having dinner tonight with the Fuzzy1 and HoneyB.   Taco Tuesday!  

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 To the tune of Billy Joel's We Didn't Start The Fire:

George Bush, Nelson’s free, reunifying Germany 

Kurt Cobain, life of pain, Nirvana never plays again

Furby toys and Game Boys  bring the kiddies lots of joy

Hammer says “You can’t touch this”; Pop Rocks fizzle on your lips

Saddam Hussein, Desert Storm, Cammo print becomes the norm.

Freddie Mercury dies of AIDS, Big shopping Malls are all the rage  

 

We found the fires burning  

We try to fix it; opponents nix it.

We found the fires burning

We try to place the blame on who started the flame

 

Bill Clinton White House Bound, Chunnel Tunnel underground 

Diana’s tragic crash in France, J.K. Rowling gets her chance  

iMacs, PCs, Euros, cloning, Jobs and Gates get big tech growing 

Seinfeld, Simpsons, Technotronic, Ice-Ice Baby, Boy Bands iconic

 

We found the fires burning  

We try to fix it; opponents try to nix it.

We found the fires burning

We try to place the blame on who started the flame

 

Bush, Gore, Chads on the floor, Y2K fears never more  

September when the Towers fell; We thought the world would go to Hell. 

Taliban and then Katrina terrorize the world scene-a 

Columbine and next V-Tech; we fear for who will be the next

Obama wins; Facebook begins, Online social life is in

Sandy Hook, a Marathon; when will the war on guns be won?

 

Same sex marriage, Pulse nightclub; Do you believe that Love is Love? 

Vegas, Charlottesville, Parkland; Why is it that big guns aren’t  banned?

Donald Trump he spreads fake news, He’s orange, creepy and so rude 

He wants a wall he wants his way; I worry for the kids today.

Racial tensions, global warming; Issues growing most alarming

Now we have the vi-a-rus What is to become of us?

 

We found the fires burning  

We try to fix it; opponents try to nix it 

We found the fires burning

We try to place the blame on who started the flame

Billy Joel's original song can be found here: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFTLKWw542g  

 

 

 

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 Red:

 

Rouge, rojo, garnet,

carmine, crimson or scarlet  

I adore red and all of its heat

just think of delicious things to eat:

lollipop stains on your lips and your tongue

sticky yet comforting when I was young

radishes, beets rare tenderloin meats 

cherries and strawberries, glorious treats

sweet, sour, tangy or cinnamon spice

Red jolly ranchers are ever so nice.

My very first bike, with streamers and a bell

and a USA flag sticker on the fender as well

Red that sparkles, now there’s a bonus

The ruby red slippers were Dorothy’s onus.

In 1975 and 76, the Reds beat the Sox and the Yanks

growing up with those heroes, I give much thanks

An antique child’s chair sits by my bed

It came from my uncle; he painted it red

“I want you to have this; now take it,” he said.

A remembrance now that he’s dead.

My house is red brick, sturdy and strong

protecting my family for many years long.

Red is enduring with power and might

A symbol for warmth, love, life and light

While others see danger, debt or distress

Red reminds me of many things blessed.

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OK, Imma just gonna say it.
I am a damn fine teacher!
I am.
I care about what your kid is learning, the quality of that learning and their ability to use the knowledge for future endeavors.
I am an excellent educator.
I believe that any kid anywhere at any time has the ability and talent for at least one (if not more) thing. Our job as educators is to help the student find their passion or super-power potential and get them to run with it. 
I am a damn good teacher because I care about your kid...even when they act like a jerk to me or someone else....even if they cheat...even if they don't come to class...I care about what happens to them. I care about them having a good life. I don't worry about them making me look bad...School isn't about me...It is about your kids...or, at least, it should be. Not blue ribbons, AIR test scores, trophies, publications and state titles. It should be first about whether or not the school community is caring for and nurturing your son/daughter in their mind, body and spirit.
I don't have a Master's degree. I am 58, and my priority was always to get my own, personal  children through four-year degrees (which I did) and not have all that debt. The thing is, it doesn't take a Master's degree to be a better teacher...maybe a higher paid teacher, but not a better one.
When it comes to teaching or tutoring your kids...
I am fucking amazing!
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