Sitting here in The Mothership’s room…

[adoptedwriter]

She’s fighting not dying with everything she’s got, but she’s also not fighting to live. She’s half asleep and half awake. She mumbles and I think knows what she wants to say but she’s barely understandable. Still trying to control her destiny but honestly can’t. She’s had some equivalent of “chill pills” but no morphine yet. My brother is coming for next weekend. My mom doesn’t know that. In my head I’m talking to some ancestors asking them to help her. Just help her. Whatever that means. There are photos of her parents and grandparents in the room. It makes me think about that song by The Judds, “Guardian Angels”. She’s so tired. So fckn tired.   I know most of y’all reading this, if you read this, are not into country tunes, but oh man! The lyrics!  
https://genius.com/The-judds-guardian-angels-lyrics

Comments

[drippedonpaper]

Hugs, hugs. I'm thinking of you. May you feel held and comforted, whatever is ahead.

[chasing_silver]

*HUGS* This time is so hard and so beautiful too. My grandmother went through it and in the end, they know when it's time to let go. <3

[ofearthandstars]

*deep, enormous hugs* May she have the peace she needs, and may you and your family have strength and comfort. You are in my thoughts.

[bleodswean]

HUGS

[shirebound]

I’m talking to some ancestors asking them to help her. Just help her. Whatever that means.

I love that.

*gentle hugs*

[ryl]

{{HUGS}}

[dadi]

*hugs*
May her suffering and fighting transform into relieved acceptance soon...

[kizzy]

When she's ready, she's ready. Doesn't make it any easier, I know. My mom's was also drawn out. We played her favorite big band era tunes on a CD player one of the assistants found somewhere. I remember silently telling my dad that all she wanted was to be with him evermore :hugs:

[wolfden]

Hugs. That always feels like the hardest part to me. The waiting in No Man's Land for the next change.

I am thinking of you. *hugs*

[fausts_dream]

Much love I know this is horrifying my mother's last days were some of my worst